This blog
a friend shared has got me thinking a lot about parenting. It's called
Motherhood as a mission field. It has a lot of good points, things I
needed to be reminded of, things i probably need to remember daily. I
don't resent my kids that I am at home with them, but I do get feeling
like they are an inconvenience to me. I get irritated when they act
their age and do childish things from time to time. See, for the most
part i have great kids, but they have their moments where the actually
act like kids. And those moments throw me off and I get irritated. It's
little stupid things that push me over the limit. It's those moments
that I need to remember A) they are kids, MY kids whom I love very much.
B) I am their mom, I wanted kids so badly, and kids are dependent. They
are supposed to be, they are KIDS. Now don't get me wrong, there are
things a 3 and 5 year old could and should be doing alone. like wiping
their own bottoms.
But as a mom, i should not feel inconvenienced by my children. I
should not be upset that I have to spend 5 more minutes with them when
all i want to do is lay on the couch and take a nap! Being a mom is a
sacrifice, sometimes it's more of a sacrifice than others, but we are
investing in people. We are helping them become who they will be for the
rest of their lives. We are showing them what being a mom is all about.
*GULP* We should be modeling Christ, so they can see Christ in us, and
then in turn display Christ in their own lives. I fail miserably at
this, most days more than others...
Also, I've been reading a lot of verses about Love lately, what love
is supposed to look like. It's impossible to fully love without Christ,
if you read 1 Corinthians 13, it gives you the guidelines for love,
it's some heavy duty stuff! no human can accomplish that. patient-
maybe. kind- yah, does not envy, does not boast, not proud, not rude,
not self-seeking, not easily angered, keeps NO record of wrongs, does
not delight in evil, rejoices with truth, always protects, always
trusts, always hopes always perseveres. I don't know about you, but i
have a hard time living up to just one of those characteristics, let
alone all of them. It's only through Christ that we can fully love
someone.
I am so glad I love and serve a perfect God who can help me love my
children and husband the way He intended me to love them. As long as I
daily ask for his help and admit that I cannot do it alone. Which is
something I need to remember. It's all quite humbling honestly.
